Reader: 9/07/2010>
Hi, i started masturbation at the age of 14, at that time i used to mastebate 2 to 3 times a week. At the age of 17 I got in a relationship with a girl & i was with her for about 2 years. We had sex 2 to 3 times a week mostly oral sex. i was so energatic, at that time i joined a gym as a fitness instrutor & i used to exercise daily. Gym was my hobby. I had no idea of anything call 'impotence' or 'premature ejaculation'. ever exist! i was so healthy.
After i broke up with her I started to masturbate more frequently to manage stress of missing her. I used to masturbate like 4 or 5 times a day, 7 days a week. Mostly 'prom' position. (squeezing penis on the bed) & at the as time i watch porn alot. i remember some nights i spend 5 to 8 hours watching porn & masturbating at the same time 1 to 5 ejaculation continuesly. I was kind of getting addicted. When i got 20 years old i was so 'weak' so 'stress' so 'addicted' to masturbation & porn. Like it became a part of my daily routine. My vesion started to get weak. back pains, premature ejaculation. Very low sperm count. Skin so dry, aging rapidly. body pain. urinating problems. My ejaculation recoverong time got longer. Sexualy Exhausted..
As this continues day by day i was getting weaker and weaker. Now i believe im in a severe addiction stage of masturbating and porn watching. Like theres some kind of devil in side me forcing me to do it, If i cant do it I get so stress and angry. i was getting lazy. insomia hitted me, erectile dysfuncting and premature ejaculation started to occer. seminal leakage. I cant concentrate on anything else. Iskip work most of the time. i started not exrcising regularly.
In the middle of age 20 one day wen i was masturbating 'prom' way on bed. I got a sudden pain in my right testicle. My right testicle feel lyk kind of heavy. After couple of days later i went to a urologist. he examed and said it is a testicle cyst. (non cencerous). He gave couple of pain kilers nothing else. I told him why this happen. but, he dont believe in anything called 'over masturbation'. He said 'its ok' but, i knw its not. i knw its the result of self abuse. After that also i continued to masturbate with pain even.
Next month (oct 18) i will become 22 years old. Now im extremely weak. feel like im realy Old. Now i nearly can see from my right eye. left eye ok a liitle. I have large viens in right side of the penis. i think due to porm masturbation. Very weak urination flow. always urge to urinate. I spend most of the day watching porn. Before i used to hold my erection up to more then 10 mins. Now i ejaculate even when i touch my penis. Penis got realy shruck. and slim. i have no confindence. Im so stressed. So painful ejaculation. Mostly i cant ejaculate because of pain. all over the body. Always wishing if i can go back to past to correct al of this. Now i quitted my work. i dont workout. because im so weak. i will tel all of my symptoms seperately. then i think it would be easy for u.
Symptoms.
* Extremely addicted to porn and masturbation.
* Sexualy Exshauted
* Pain in the brain, back bone, groin, leg, abdominal, liver area, tailbone, penis, testicle, prostate area, joints.
* Painful ejaculation, unwanted discharge, Seminal leakage
* Very low sperm count. Watery sperm.
* Testicular Cyst right side testicle
* Large root kind of veins on the right side of the penis (due to prom masturbation)
* Penis shrucked / Testicle shrucked
* Youthfull impotence, premature ejaculation. (Cant hold for 5 secs)
* Blurred fuzzy eyes, memory loss, weak hair, dry skin, Buzzing ears.
* Numb and tingling in the legs, Arms
* Panik attacks
* Weak prostate. (Freaquently urinating, Urge to urinating, Urinating incontinently, Weak urination steam.
* Soft weak erection / Cold penis
* Rapid heart beat / Short of breath
* Anxiety, Depressed.
* No confidence
* Ageing rapidly
* Hypertension / Mood swing
* Insomia
I NEED HELP SO BADLY :(.. I WANT TO BE NORMEL AGAIN. AND GET MARRIED.. HOPE U WILL REPLY ME SOON & HELP ME.
Thank you